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antisocial girl
antisocial seeing thingsantisocial purpose avoidance persistence
antisocial searching the ground for a diuretic weed
antisocial while trying to communicateantisocial diatribe grievances
antisocial describing diatribe as manifesto
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antisocial discontent
antisocial governanceantisocial next to your fire
antisocial half-hour unpaid lunch break
antisocial networking app trackantisocial feeling as though I did something wrong
antisocial so far outside it’s inside
antisocial guess you don’t knowantisocial lifetime avoiding accidents
antisocial investment account closed
antisocial power plantantisocial can’t say that
antisocial common sense
antisocial uniformed and ununiformedantisocial would fill it in differently
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antisocial completely understands my frustrationantisocial album lyrics
antisocial map upside down
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antisocial conviction level
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antisocial happy hour alleviationantisocial inspires another’s mettle
antisocial objectivity you can argue with
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antisocial surveillance of suburban sidewalk accidental drifters
antisocial aloha to friendsantisocial confidence man
antisocial whaler
antisocial scrivenerantisocial commitment to each other
antisocial function of the board
antisocial part of the brain, the amygdalaantisocial just making things worse for
antisocial family
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antisocial light duties
antisocial since neverantisocial petition form
antisocial petition timeframe
antisocial petition examinationantisocial artificial trustworthiness
antisocial plushie dump
antisocial way of lifeantisocial hard soft plastics
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antisocial hugs and kisses
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antisocial martian cubicle
antisocial pre-computer-era acronym spoilageantisocial comedic talent
antisocial place in the dissonance
antisocial having to stay organizedantisocial archaeological sites
antisocial grocery shopping
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antisocial business of personification
antisocial hoarderantisocial staring out the window
antisocial world out the window
antisocial windowantisocial stench of civic compact
antisocial time at the airport cell phone waiting area
antisocial horizonantisocial case number
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What is the outcome of treating touch as an intransitive verb? What might it feel like to touch at something rather than simply to touch it?
With my torso across the tree bark and my face among the leaves, am I still celibate? I ask because I’ve had recent physical encounters with terms like “afferent,” “corrugator,” and “sulcus.” Collectively, their meanings give me mild concern over my penchant for extra-personal attraction.
How quickly I bump into a crowd. Where do I go when I start to experience language as a mechanosensory system? I touch you, as in a hit in fencing or a capping witticism. What other prepositions can I throw in, not as nerve blocks but as non-endings?
I non-anxiously await your poesis.
Yours,
Poetry RunupDear PR,
You must have, in your 40 odd years, had the occasion to text someone: are you free Friday? And when Friday comes, you might be unsure whether to shave, up here or down there, what to share, how to present your eagerness; how to temper the delicate balance of sincerity and insincerity—how to be candid but not sobering.
Remember: awkwardness is just one of the disguises of beauty.
And beauty itself is only beauty by name. Underneath it is the delicate balance of ugly forces, currents of drive and despair, torments monstrous and sweet.
But, PR, I’m getting ahead of myself, the same way you allow—through your question—touch to be had literally, giving it the occasion to precede itself. Our mutual occasions are writerly; our occasions are those of anticipation, staring at a blank page, both heavy-handed and ambivalent so the question of celibacy becomes the joke your only fans play on you—the marriage of Friday night to Monday morning is the indolence of a hymen swaying to and fro—
PR, let me count the ways you sweat your way across the tiles of your kitchen, otherwise called wanting. The beeping of your night laundry touching at the heart of the matter, but only just—
Let me count the touches that ail you as you write to me.
Touch #1: As you mention, to touch at
As in, I touch at your sleep. WHILE YOU WITH SLEEP DRENCH ME.
It’s the touch of incompatibility, as in, I do not live in your timezone. Your post-supper sext might come at breakfast.
This touch leers at your horoscopic circumvention: you dare arrive thus? Iron your shirt, lest your pants unrip.
It’s a confrontation that asks: If bodies are gendered circuits of desire, and things are only the borders of people, what does it mean for a desired thing to seduce by way of solidity, rather than slipper-nippled circumvention?
Which asks: what’s touching for?
After all, to touch at requires concentration. The synchrony of energy and desire, attunement and coinherence: a “being-within-one-another.”
Touch is just a valence of aloneness, but it really is you that spawns the dreaded interrogation of the boundaries of your own silly self, if such a thing even exists.
To touch at her, I touch at myself, reminding you we’re never together enough.
Touch #2: The impersonal touch
As personal as a dream is personal.
If this touch works, it’s by leering like a leper from behind a shuttered gate—
Touch #3: To touch of . . . the disenfranchised touch . . . the accidental, the stolen touch
Like looking at a photograph and finding something in it to love.
Like touching a bruise.
Or finding a single hair under the couch that’s outlived your love.
This kind of touch questions your own celibacy.
For your purposes, here’s Ghandi’s celibacy test:
1. Am I truly free of desire?
2. Can I treat the human body with complete clinical and spiritual detachment?
3. Is my personal impurity causing collective suffering?
4. Am I my own sacrifice?Another version is composed of only three question:
1. Is sulcus not the sexiest word you’ve never heard?
2. Has the scent of jasmine filled your mouth?
1. Is sulcus not the sexiest word you’ve never heard?
2. Isn’t the corrugator a machine that turns dissatisfaction into pleasure?
3. How celibate are you if you come to an image?Touch #4: To touch over
As in with a touch of the hand, to scan a surface for dew
Sulking over the threshold of boy and man boy
Asking: How can a head be so shiny?
Touch #5: The annihilating touch
The nullification of identity—not by soap but through seduction.
Impatient, our attention deteriorates. Your compromised position seeks the glance which wants knees, palms, cheeks on the floor,
As if your body were fog, and my brush passes over you, seeking not to define but to dilate—stretching, turning you over, until your back is flat against—against
Touch #6: To touch with: the telepathic touch
You love to count, meticulously organizing your inbox, until the ice dilutes your drink.
You live alone so you write.
But you are not alone. It’s just your loneliness pressed against your aloneness.
You hate weekend warriors. Everyday, you lose to drink, drugs, depression. This is a source of pleasure for you. You touch with your sorrow what escapes your comprehension. But you’re not even invested in the future, and your question touches me even before it arrives.
Touch #7: The touch that asks, “why live?”
At the epic on the go at the union station megabus terminal
Your touch registers consumption but you pay by card. It’s all electronic. Telepathic.Surveillance shopping for the advanced shoplifter. It’s your god given challenge. A contrapasso to your ethical non monogamy. Doritos, Cheetos, and lays tempt your hand but not your mind.
It’s 10:15 and you slept at 5 taking turns between backgammon and sopranos with your obese cat wheezing beside you. If you touched between dreams it was either happenstance or coincidence.
The overperfumed lady gestures to the deal of 3 for 2, or 2 for 3. You don’t dare to touch the m and m’s in case the camera registers your contact. And you can’t wait to get out of there, knowing there’s a realer loneliness waiting for you outside. Called the hell of solitude but really just a bus to St Catharine's for a translation conference.
Any chair, any where, the bus conductor says.
Touch #8: In a postscript, you say you touch me
P.S. Last night was lovely.
But how can I say it back? What can I say about the pulse in your kneecap? Or your jagged fingernail that waddles on the same old scab?
P.P.S. Like a question which is quicker answered than asked, what is said is often the last resistance to what is done.
P.P.P.S. Good luck, knowing that it is impossible to touch what touches you back.
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there are two ways to write this:
I was given a fellowship to research
poetry for nine months which
did not pay me enough to rent
a small basement apartment in the city
in which the university was located
but came with a notoriety my ambition
could not afford to decline
+ I used the money I was given
in wedding gifts and + from my family
to live in the basement
in this expensive city in the house
of a Lacanian psychoanalyst
and take the bus to the campus
on the hill to work for a little
more money a few days a week
as an archivists’ assistant
and used my free public health insurance
to have a procedure to image
my unscarred fallopian tubes
using salt water and x-ray
and felt ashamed to be so
dependent and unproductive
and used more money to camp
throughout Canada in part as research
in part as experience salvaged
from an expensive lonely and sickish year
and on this drive spent the afternoon
of Canada Day after working
in the morning on the free wifi
outside the closed public library
at a small beach on an island
in the Canadian Pacific looking
at the ritual basin carved
into a rock on the shore
by the island’s native people
in some undated history
that another poet had written
a book about the island
now overwritten by tourists
like ourselves and some people on the shore
collecting huge oysters that lived
and grew there:somehow the day is both hot
and cold at once and it is
the clear northern light
of early summer that draws its lines
through us in this place
everything is bright everything
sharp cool shade everything
the rock hot in the noon sun
under our backs everything
the cold Pacific up to our ankles
then knees the ache
the cosmic tuning of immersion
into the cold cooled depths
and release sparkling back
to the surface and sun warmth
written like a day in a year of fog
and missed hours lost months
under the house with the rhododendrons
through the window at eye level
above the bed the small compass
of the days the body struggled through
this time and another inscribed
in the tidal rock by some
forgotten person here before us
a ritual whose purpose
we do not know a bowl
to hold a small pool
of water when the water recedes
a sun or moon our rite
is different we follow
a poet following a poet here
we almost miss it
we sit with our senses
take what we can from the weather
leave the oysters warm or cold
in their giant shells exposed
among the rocks
where others come for them
among the middens on the shore
of other centuries
here now we are unsure
what is our natural inheritance
the neural birthright
of our immortal natality
what is fair for us to take at all
we buy our dinner in a market
we pay for where we camp
we leave on the ferry the next day
+ I write the poem years later
I want the beauty of both ways -
“thrum of vivid sensations”
while the squirrel of Minerva
hides its nut of the future: the latest
CT scan reading from the pulpit a letter
sent from Hell: 4000 BCE,
Birdlike
at the entrance
denying alms to the shirtless, the
obvious connection
between the tiny parasitic wasp
and ridicule of Elmer Fudd’s speech impediment, and we who
gather the scattered laundry of Osiris mistake mere
shadow for solid pillar, totemically
adverbial,
abstracted as a concrete cloud, a
fifth world hidden
on a plate of lemon slices, but
Oh
for a grassy, grassy,
grassy knoll
to include melancholy
gentleman, masterwort, and
Hattie’s pincushion plus a
Cuban exploding cigar on a delicate fringe
of urbanity, face of the second Cathy
floating beyond the bars of a
mullioned window, but
if and only if roller-derby
etiquette obtains, by which
I mean I haven’t got a passport because it
was taken, disappeared up or down a
pneumatic tube when I bent to retrieve some
half-dollar coins in the foyer, so you must, you
must go on to
conquer Eurasia without me, the
Temple of Nemesis and the trail of a fox
leading to the orange street cat, hostile
to its own negation, and the concept
of the Big Otter beside Revelstoke’s
beloved town skunk discussing property
ownership with Arnold of Brescia, all this
socially unnecessary labor time-
tunnel banditry – tertiary narcissism I’m
looking at you through binoculars – that
these thingly forms access through vast
fungal networks a delectable
fish that can never be eaten, never beaten.
Semiannual coal dump at grandparents’
cellar door and an owl-light pledge of putty
at the mud lake pavilion, over near the garden
of a fifth or sixth Hamburg Beatle, liver-lilyed,
just as one dares oneself to appear as mere
symptom. Two warty comb jellies, also known as sea walnuts,
fuse into one sentient being and pose the mystery
of the disappearing anus, while the argument of this
midsize sculptural tondo is that the despicable
actions of its government over the last centuries
render this so-called country unfit
for continued existence. Volcanoes
or vole canoes, you choose:
following the tradition set by Gagarin
Tereshkova also urinated on the bus tire,
becoming the first woman to do so, leading
great-uncle Filbert to once again complain
that he could no longer look at any particular
thing without a great and seemingly infinite
scroll of named contingencies unfurling
beneath it, causing him to close his eyes
and cough in church, bringing down capitalism
from the outside of the inside, for as Keynes
remarked, in the long run you are all dead – not
me though, I get to live forever, a pretext
for the montage in question, silvery, sublime as verb,
according to the temple’s vibrating landline –
to bronze the libido as Bloch says Jung did,
ventifactual protuberances
that run one’s résumé ragged: from unstructured
Romantic dilettantism, abraded,
pitted, etched, grooved, or polished.
But uh-uh no you’re a flying rat, and pigeons
are gracious and diligent urban messengers
who own show cattle at the end of history, and
yes, but, if you don’t have a cat, how can you
dry your hands – heroic simile, poly-glamorous, megatrans.
Please keep your tail out of the fox water, the princess
is meant to drink that in a full house
next to a spire without a sky in which some cognitive
entity is both obliterated and salvaged for parts in a more-
or-less secret town halfway up the far side
of the mountain our apprentice-hero grew
next to the unfinished works of dead
novelists who once walked here attended by
shepherds who perceive that all five skandhas are empty
and are alert to what the cat or cats left on the malt heap
or helium projector spitting yes,The sublation of the humble sump pump
into the larger fact of autonomous basement
hubbub against the snowblower of abstraction
wending toward finale in which Emcee Em Prime
bites mic and handstands against a great light
without a concept, balanced on the scissored
removal of an object in a landscape portending
an exercise in needle-threading the sabots of
sabotage and the kink reports of returning
génocidaires, contagious peripeteia ducking in
and out, these then the actual shears that great-
aunt Tilda yielded in the inner-suburban speed-
bump battles, but this harmony of the faculties,
Batman, how can we bottle it in time for the Solstice orgy?
Total asset stranding of petroleum and coal
goes without saying, tulips
and turnips, lots of turnips, handmade pet
toys, armadillos headed north spreading
leprosy as they go, profit rates fall amid
locusts after the equestrian fiasco, but
as the poet sang, everybody shoves somebody
sometime, to have become a sort of half-
person within the indignities of semipro
mud wrestling, watching the adjective shirty
implode when touched by the etymologist’s pinky
so hurry up I’ve got pillows to fill
with human feathers harvested just floating around
as though intending to say something about
bottomless bottles of ductless endocrine
secretions hormonally frisky at the field
hockey round-robin, expropriatio
sine compensatione I mean infantile
and disordered as though that’s a bad thing? -
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